Let me hide under the covers, pull my shell over my head and not have to deal with all that is coming at me. I (essentially) have ten days to get everything done - to sort, purge, maintain, survive. To see people, do things, enjoy this state, keep my sanity. And today it feels like a losing battle.
"Just take one big step." His voice seemed to echo into the night. He'd already said it once before...or was it twice? I felt his hand on my back. Could he feel me shaking? I knew he wouldn't push me in. This was a decision I had to make. I looked behind at the other... Continue Reading →
Ten years ago, almost to the day, I said goodbye to the city I love. I had spent the summer in Rwanda, working alongside a church there to send their children to private school. As my time drew to a close I started to wonder where I would go next. I wanted to return to... Continue Reading →
I have written a whole post on the Next Right Thing Podcast before. It is still a weekly staple for me, one that often leaves me in tears on the highway as God is able to break through and gently touch a nerve in my heart. Today the Next Right Thing BOOK comes out and... Continue Reading →
Now I am asking: what did I succeed at today? What little successes, little wins, little "heck yeahs!" did I have? Too often we look at the big things or let one little bad thing define our whole day. But what went really well?
In my prayers I am often a little girl in a flower field. I run my hand along the tops of the flowers that grow wild, up to my waist. I am looking a field with a lake and a beautiful mountain rising before me. I imagine that someday I will be a grown-up here. I will finally not be playing dress-up. But what if that is the entire opposite of what God wants?
I bought Hotel on the Corner of Bitter and Sweet by Jamie Ford because of the cover but I fell in love with it almost immediately. It is a classic story that has to much to teach us today.
There are moments in life that define you. Moments that you can't go back against. You are never the same after those moments. Something in you is irreparably changed, broken, shifted. Two years later it is still a mix of emotion. Half a world away everything collapsed.